It's Snowing Again!

I occasionally do rash things, and they are usually bad. I got a call from Chapters tonight, half of my order came in... I really actually want the Mortal Instruments book more than Sakura Hime but that is okay. I checked the weather, and it said light rain so I just threw on a hoodie, and ran out the door. I didn't even get to the end of the street, and it started to snow. I also ended up throwing my phone in the ditch. So talented right? This was at night when I had already been at the mall for something to do earlier during the day.
I love my Dad, I call him too much possibly. He was playing Pokémon when I called. ♥
I am trying to finally finish playing Phoenix Wright series, this might take a while. I still also have to get further in Pokémon Black. I started watching Kaleido Star, and I am absolutely in love with it.
Will this gaping void ever heal? I still care for my first ex-boyfriend. I would do anything to have him back but he won't take me back.... Ugh.

Christmas Doesn't Feel Like Christmas This Year

Merry Christmas Everyone!
Christmas isn't what it quite used to be... It really doesn't feel like Christmas this year....
As a child I remember going to the neighbour's with my Grandmother when she was delivering presents, and we used to have such nice neighbours. My Grandfather would order Chinese, and we would have it together on Christmas Eve. On Christmas Day we would have supper at both of my Grandparent's house sometimes, and other times just one. I would get to see all my Uncle's, and Aunt's, my Mother's siblings too. My other Aunt, my Dad's Sister still comes down to see us.
It all fell apart though after my parents separated, and one of Grandfather's passed away, and my other Grandmother was placed in a Nursing Home. This all happened relatively around the same time too.
It hasn't snowed much, it has mostly been raining....
I love tradition, it's repetitive, yet beautiful, and keeps people together...

Negative Thinking

Life has been falling apart since September. I can't help but think negatively.... It's all I know, I also constantly hate myself.
Work is hell every single day.
I did have one fun day though. I help decorate at a friend's house, because they didn't call me to decorate at work... We had great fun.
Also went Christmas shopping with Dad. Well I know what my Brother is getting for Christmas, Dad got it before now. My brother is so spoiled, must be nice.
I literally work my butt off now to get what I want, and when I was younger I didn't have a job, my parents wouldn't give me money, yet they give my brother money all the time.

Update Time!

I was recently informed of some awesome plans, and if they fall through I will be really upset.... It is all about moving next year, and that new college, and friends coming too, and I am so excited. Yay for my head being constantly stuck in the future daydreaming when I am not reminiscing the past or am just living at the moment. :D I am so crazy.
I finally told my father I dropped out... I cannot tell my mother though. I am 19 though, so she can't really stop me. I still haven't officialized (is that even a word?) the drop out. I shall this week Tuesday after work. A few things occurred this week that I had to deal with, ugh male employees. I really need to get my butt in gear.
I have to spend quite a bit of time sleeping so I can get up for m morning shifts, it feels great to be back full-time with counter shifts. Love mornings. I have been sleepy during my night shifts recently too, and I do not like dealing with night shifts.
Also since I am starting to pay student loans, and my credit card, and I have my cell phone bill it should be fun. Yay responsibility, and a job. =D Cannot wait to get my redemption on my glasses, that should help since I put that on my credit. Also some of it was university stuff.
Going away for a week Thursday! I am so excited! Yay! Halloween is coming too!!!!
I have to work for the next four days before though... Oh well. :D