Something is Always Wrong

I am in so much pain, physically, emotionally, mentally.
Physically it came from work, where else would it come from. The playplace door was swinging today, and it came back, and smacked me in the back several times. Headaches. Physically ill most of the time. Sleeping? Forget about it. Maybe for a few hours but I'm rolling around, or up way to early with little sleep. Tylenol isn't working. This might require a trip to outpatients, or a clinic.
Emotionally, and mentally something is always going on.
I'm always fighting with work. I'm always getting yelled at for something, usually stupid.... No one ever listens when I speak. The usual. I get cut hours a lot. It's because I'm new, and not well liked. Am I ever liked wherever I go?
I work myself hard, extremely hard because there is nothing else for me to do.
The only thing ever on my mind is problems.
I'm on probation with student loans.... Because I didn't finish second year at Mount Allison.... I have to do well this year. I plan on working hard. If I make it that far...
I've got two people visiting me. One is actually one of my one, and only friends who sticks by me. The other girl, well... she's pushing her luck.... I have to work, but that doesn't give her the right to help ourselves to our fridge, I never said she could. She is also quite loud.... To loud for me.
I finally bought some decent groceries. The farmer's market is excellent for eggs, and bread.
I feel like an idiot for telling that guy that he is cute. It's not like what I used to do but whatever. I don't really know anyone here, and they sure don't know me. I don't like believing in people much either.
So much going on, so much faking happiness. It's ripping me to shreds.

A Weekend Back Home :)

I was so excited to go home this weekend, and I am so glad I did. :)
I got home Friday, and much to my dismay I had the bus driver who is not very nice after I transferred buses, and had him again tonight on my way back.
I hoped off the bus excitedly, and when I did I stopped because there was someone familiar putting gas in their car, after a stare down that lasted a minute, or two I realized it was my high school French teacher from grade 10, and 11. After talking with him I ran across the road to go visit my old co-workers. I was greeted by a friend who snuck up behind me while talking to the workers at the gas station who I am familiar with, I still remember their coffee orders. I also remember quite a few of the other regular's orders.
After this I went downtown to go meet some friend's at my favourite old school diner. My Dad parks in the bar parking lot, and a friend who is at the bar comes out, and jokingly yells at me so I proceed to do it back jokingly. I go in to find my cousin, and a few other people I haven't seen in forever. I also check to see if the karaoke DJ is there, and he is so we joke around for a few minutes. After hanging out with friends at the diner, I head back to the bar just for a round of karaoke, and to be around friends. I ended up going home after this, and got a full night's sleep since I didn't have to work in the morning.
Saturday morning I got up to a bunch of notices on my phone; facebook messages, and text messages. Dad took me to see the damage to his work place because the roof caved in, and the damage is insane. We then went, and visited my Grampy who turned 93. :) He currently has Pneumonia, and Pleurisy in one lung but he seems to be doing okay. I was glad to come home, and see him. My Aunt also came down. We went to the Farmer's Market; I wanted sushi but they sold the last one as I came in it would have been better if I had went earlier, oh well. Went to my first ever Bridal Shower for a friend, and it was a lot of fun, and the food was amazing! I felt nervous because I didn't know many people there, but I did know a few. I hung out with another friend later, and we talked about a whole bunch of stuff. :)
Sunday I didn't set my alarm properly, and no one was around to wake me up so I didn't get up in time for church. :( Next time I am home I am going. So I traded Pokémon with my brother since we have opposite versions. It was fun. I then went out for lunch with two friends at Pizza Delight. They have really good paninis.
The bus ride home was longer than usual, and I am sore from sitting weird. I now have at least one umbrella :), my hair dryer, and metal hangers so I am satisfied. Though I left my tub of cookie dough in the fridge again. :( I'll grab it in two weeks time. :)

Those Puddles are Awfully Deceiving

I didn't getup early enough to go to the market. Maybe I will go next week if I don't work. I stayed up late reading The Infernal Devices: Clockwork Angel by: Cassandra Clare. I love her books I cannot wait for the next addition of the Mortal Instruments: City of Fallen Angels in April, and the next addition of The Infernal Devices: Clockwork Prince later in the year.
So ever since I changed my number people are always calling it. I find it kind of funny, it hasn't been annoying at all.
So today I walked into the other part of town, and I finished my Yoshi collection. :) I went to the big mall, and Teriyaki Experience is closed. :( I am sad, their food was amazing, and healthy.
There are now puddles on the streets, and I stepped in one that was a little bit deeper than I thought, and I wasn't wearing waterproof boots either. The sidewalks have a slight layer of snow, and are not as bad as they were yesterday. It has been snowing all day, but it was nice to walk in minus the cold.
I am addicted to Britney Spears new song, I don't remember the last time she released a song, or anything like that.
Hopefully Orientation isn't canceled again tomorrow, I was not very impressed.
Other than that my day consisted of doing laundry, boring mostly, and playing WoW to pass the timeé

The Side Walks are Skating Rinks

I went out today for groceries finally. Good thing I can live off twenty dollars, cause that is all I bought. Mostly pre-prepared stuff, because I only cook when I really feel like it, and it is rare.
The sidewalks are like sheets of ice. I forgot my umbrellas, oh well. I guess I forgot more than I thought, but I got everything else major. I just about killed myself walking in, so I took a taxi home.
I stopped at Pet's Unlimited, which was nice. I really want a hamster. ; 3; They had some cute rodents, dogs, birds, but the cats were ugly as sin.
My bed ate one of my socks, still haven't found it.
Tomorrow is market day. Yay!

All in a Days Work

Realization: I don't have a house key. I called the landlord, and she is bringing one over tonight.
I was woken up this morning by the phone ringing. I am smart enough to leave my phone so that I won't hear texts, but I leave it on so that people can call me. I went out for breakfast with my friend at McDonald's, and I hope to hang out with her again Saturday during the Farmer's Market because her mother is coming down.
I fought with my closet for ten minutes because I forgot how to pull it open. Silly me. My closet was in a disarray, until I bought 40 hangers, and only used 21, oh well, I have extras. Wal-Mart bags are horrible, I also bought a pop up hamper. I went to Staples for Wall Tacks. I also ended up buying a few more little necessities.
I ended up changing my cell phone to local. The company store didn't give me a problem like the last time I tried to change something on my phone, but of course this was elsewhere.
I walked everywhere, it is only a 15 minute walk to work. It is a little bit further to the mall, and there is a smaller strip mall across from work with everything I need.
I feel so responsible.