Interesting Long Weekend

In one week I got my GST, and my Student Loan which is great.
I have been having a great time with the friends I made at school. The problem is when I am with friends I tend to put off my homework, so I skipped Ceramics Friday, and got caught up in all my classes. I also went in on Monday, and finished a project with help because I was cutting mat board, and made some bowls for ceramics. I am glad that this week is the final ceramics class. I had a random elevator ride with the drawing teacher who sang the entire time, and they could hear him on the third floor.
Went out for food Friday night with my roommate, and some others, and most places had a wait. We went to East Side Mario's first, and then Boston Pizza, after calling a few places we decided to stay a Boston Pizza for food, and had a great time.
I got to have Thanksgiving dinner with a friend, her grandparents, and two other people. I would rather have had it with family, but I was told not to come home by my father, and my family where I currently live haven't contacted me since I moved....
Should mention I finally have a small television in my room that I bought from a roommate. Now I can play video games, and watch movies in my room. <3 One of us has to get a mini fridge because our fridge is not big enough for everyone.
Work was quite dead this weekend. No one really wants to buy a suit on a long weekend. We did have a lot of tuxedo returns though.

Busy Weeks

I got help on the throwing wheel this week from a studio tech, and I can now somewhat do it, and I am ecstatic that I can now do it better. I went to my drawing teacher's gallery opening, and I went to another gallery opening of another teacher in the school. They both do amazing work. This week I am going to go have lunch with the dean of the school, and an artist talk with Peter Gibson, a Canadian Graffiti artist from Montreal. It is going to be a great week. Assessment week is coming up soon, and I have no idea what to expect the teachers to say about my work. I am absolutely terrified for it.
I am unfortunately still waiting a while on money from Student Loans. Once again it is a good thing I decided to call, or I would have been screwed for a longer period of time....
I mostly work on the weekends which can be very boring, but it was very busy this weekend due to a buy one, get one free. We are also having another one later in the month.
I picked up my pre-ordered copy of Harvest Moon: Tale of Two Towns for the DS, and got my little alpaca plushie. I absolutely love the game, but they are getting harder, and harder to play as I love the old system better. I do love the concept of befriending animals which they kept from Animal Parade. The alpaca wasn't as big as I thought it would be, but I still love it anyways.
My iPod is not working properly, and I will have to replace the audio jack in the bottom which I have no clue how to do. I got my Father to ship me my good old Zune, and ordered a new sync cable since my old one doesn't work. I am going to be glad when all that gets here I loved it way more than my iPod. I also uninstalled anything by Apple on my computer; I am not really a big fan of them anyways.

Ceramics Update, and Motivation

So far I am thoroughly enjoying ceramics. I had a small taste of it in high school but I did not enjoy it than, and made quite the atrocious looking teapot. I hated hand throwing at that point, but now I have a better grasp of it. I have done three textured masks, two Jomon pots (pots excavated from Japan, oldest in history), one soft slab vessel, and I am currently working on another which is going to be the reproduction of my ugly teapot from high school. These will be glazed, and hopefully posted after I finish them. From there I will learn a little wheel throwing.
We have seven weeks of each media, and I am really enjoying ceramics. I have another five to do; Graphic Design, Photography, Fashion Design, Textiles, and Jewelry/Metal Working. I am initially going to this school in hopes of Fashion Design, but I am open to the chance I might like something else better. Second semester we have two medias at once.
So the form I filled out wrong, I filled out wrong a second time. It is getting irksome because you would think after three years I would be able to fill out these forms... Apparently I can't.
I have been able to keep rather busy with my homework, and now I work both Saturday, and Sunday because I am the only Customer Sales Assistant left because everyone else has left, or have been fired in the most unprofessional way ever.
I wish I could have been this motivated a lot sooner sometimes but I realize this was the way it was meant to be. I love where I live. (Minus the issues with the one roommate living with me, and underneath me). This city has so much opportunity in it, and amazing schools.

Hurricane Irene & The Beginning of Classes

Last time I was going to post I was logged out, and I lost everything so here we go again.

I will start my post off by saying Irene is probably the worst hurricane I have seen in years, and where I live we were right at the edge of that path. I have been in a lesser hurricane like that, and thought it would be nothing. We lost power around 11 Sunday night. My roommates, and I lit candles, and hung around in the living room. We ended up camping there that night. Having no electricity, and lacking food that could be eaten as is, the next day we ordered food from an amazing pizzeria. We finally got the power back Tuesday evening thankfully.

I am setting my priorities straight, and have managed to really organize myself for the year which will be really helpful. I have set goals, and plans to get everything done in a timely, and less stressful manner.

I started class Tuesday, and thankfully we only had two classes with icebreaker introductions of ourselves. I hate speaking aloud. My favourite class so far is Colour study, we are going to using Gouache paints, but I don't really know how I feel about those at the moment. I also have History, 2D Design, Drawing, Communications, and Ceramics (only seven weeks). I like the History class because it is set up like a university course where you have lecture than tutourial. The Communications class is a grammar, and how to use Microsoft Office, and since I was in high school I have taken several courses with that as the component, and the same with one university course, it just won't leave me alone!

I made a new friend which is surprising, and different for nervous, and shy me. She is very nice, and we have History together. I thought I wouldn't make any friends because I didn't really make any friends at university because they were all fake.

I am unfortunately on year three of annoyance with Student Loans. I have never been so irritated. They never even contacted me to tell me that I had filled out part of my form wrong. I am also currently working on all their forms that I have to fill out.

Something is Always Wrong

I am in so much pain, physically, emotionally, mentally.
Physically it came from work, where else would it come from. The playplace door was swinging today, and it came back, and smacked me in the back several times. Headaches. Physically ill most of the time. Sleeping? Forget about it. Maybe for a few hours but I'm rolling around, or up way to early with little sleep. Tylenol isn't working. This might require a trip to outpatients, or a clinic.
Emotionally, and mentally something is always going on.
I'm always fighting with work. I'm always getting yelled at for something, usually stupid.... No one ever listens when I speak. The usual. I get cut hours a lot. It's because I'm new, and not well liked. Am I ever liked wherever I go?
I work myself hard, extremely hard because there is nothing else for me to do.
The only thing ever on my mind is problems.
I'm on probation with student loans.... Because I didn't finish second year at Mount Allison.... I have to do well this year. I plan on working hard. If I make it that far...
I've got two people visiting me. One is actually one of my one, and only friends who sticks by me. The other girl, well... she's pushing her luck.... I have to work, but that doesn't give her the right to help ourselves to our fridge, I never said she could. She is also quite loud.... To loud for me.
I finally bought some decent groceries. The farmer's market is excellent for eggs, and bread.
I feel like an idiot for telling that guy that he is cute. It's not like what I used to do but whatever. I don't really know anyone here, and they sure don't know me. I don't like believing in people much either.
So much going on, so much faking happiness. It's ripping me to shreds.

More Boringness

Applied for student loans, and what a pain in the butt process it is. Especially since I did not remember the password, and I had to call my father for his income tax information. You have to do things certain ways, and it is just plain frustrating.
I did go to work today. I am not as sick as I was, thankfully. They had me all over the store between drive-thru, and counter, and it was so confusing. I hate confusing days at work!
Going to leave the house this weekend for other than work, or groceries. Going to an open house, and the Saturday market. I also have to go to the art supply store because COPICS are on sale. Kind of a happier note.
I hate being so fake happy at work it is sickening, but I have to be...
Neighbour still is being difficult, and isn't moving out.... BLAH!
Had an entire French Class come in today, and order in French, and their French was atrocious! I felt the teacher was looking down on me, I don't remember much French. I did remember more as I went though. I will learn that language I promise.
Yea, still frustrated, and upset. One thing, one stupid thing would make me so happy, and it sucks that it will never happen.

This And That

OMG! OMG! OMG!
I passed my first essay with a 6.1/10!!! This is the same essay that I failed last year. I do need to work on organization, and writing style, but I am very, very pleased that I passed this essay!!
I have officially met the two half Japanese twins. Really nice, and funny. I just wish people didn't have to tell others the stupid things about me, what a great friend eh? This is one person I don't trust either.
I walked in today, it was sunny, and there was a nice breeze blowing, go to lunch with a friend, and we go to leave, and what is it doing? Pouring rain. Screw off... Can't find a decent normal umbrella in town either...
Japanese tutorial lab today. Like any other day got to be stupid again. :D HOORAH. *sarcasm* Talked with a friend after. Finally mailed my Confirmation of Earnings for Student Loans. Grabbed food for supper at the grocery store.
Now I shall go into a rant.
2 months in counting, not including this month until I get out of this stupid town!
It will be better to not have to see people I cannot stand. You know I had a boyfriend too, we didn't hang off each other, and spend every moment together, and all that stuff. But there are people that do that, and those are usually the people who value their boyfriends over their friends. My thoughts on that are: Go die in a fire. <3 I am not the only immature one. WAIT!!!! I am always immature, according to everyone else that is.

My Mind is Made Up

I snapped walking across campus to Japanese today. This is after I went to buy a new Minna No Nihongo: Translation and Grammatical Notes because the one I bought last year is currently trying to mold, and is still quite wet....
Why stay at this university and be miserable? I really want to drop out right now, on the spot. I will wait though... Until this semester is over. I don't care about student loans because where I am going I can earn that tuition easily, not a problem. I really don't care what my mother says, it's my life, and I will do what I want. The shifts I worked as full time were insane, and I was making overtime almost every week because I am reliable, and I take shifts, and I never miss shifts.

Awkwardness and Student Loans Problems

Last night I spent quite a bit of time working on my Microeconomics assignment, all by myself. It really isn't hard.
I went shopping with the Japanese Society club tonight for the sushi party tomorrow. I find it really awkward for some reason to be walking around in a group full of Japanese students.
I just checked my student account balance and once again Student Loans failed to give me enough to pay this semester. It is actually less than last year....
So screwed....

It Just Got Worse

Worst day ever so far this year.
I wasn't feeling well this morning so I didn't go to Economics. I woke up put the stuff on the door for the delivery I was suppose to get, went back to sleep, woke up later, and it was there. It was sunny out then. I left at either the right, or wrong time for my economics lab, which I missed because I got into town late. Why? Because it was pouring so hard that down by where I live it was flooded with water on the streets, and I walked in it. The manholes were clogged so the town had to come, and remove the clogging. Just as they came this car didn't slow down, and you know excessive speed, and a lot of water on the street results in a big wave. If I didn't step back I would have been soaked, and even more upset. I wore tights, and a skirt, and I was soaked from the waist down. I bought warm sweatpants from the school bookstore. My feet were wet for four hours though.
I went, and got my student loan. Apparently they won't fax my confirmation of earnings but they did last year. I am short some money... AGAIN. Just like first semester last year.
I did make it to Japanese class though. The guy I used to like as me a really difficult question. It really upset me, and I still do not like him, why did I use to have a crush on him. =/ My phone was vibrating very loudly during class twice... First time it was Rogers calling to tell me the phone I ordered was in. The second time it was work, trying to get me to come in but I already was closing.
I was so pissed. I really hate this town, the university, my job, and my life.

Problems and Good Things

NARGH!
I am so angry at myself. I am having a hard time talking to my conversation partner. The one I befriended this summer we automatically clicked. This is just like the one from last fall, but last fall I still liked anime so I am blaming some of it on that.
I am so nervous, and when I am nervous I talk fast. We went to the Cafe tonight, and I didn't talk much at first. I warmed up better with the scavenger hunt.
I don't have to take Sociology next semester. *happy face* The fail is going to stay on my record though. *sad face* I have to go figure out next semester, I have to take three or four courses to be considered full time to get my student loans, and I currently have one next semester. I am going to go get help.
I went to the activities fair. I am helping with the Japanese Club, I signed up for Swing dancing, Badminton, and the culinary club.

Making the Best of It

I can't even get into Sociology next semester I keep getting the Faculty consent line from the registration site. I emailed the Professor of the course, and I hope she is nicer than the other Professor I emailed. I NEED to get back in. I didn't end up going to class today either, and I doubt we did anything in History. I worked last night so I was tired when I got home, but I stayed up and played a bit or World of Warcraft, and talked to a friend.
I am still not impressed about being stuck here. =/ I am going to fix my mistakes, and hopefully leave with a GPA that gets me out of Academic Probation.
The boss better fill out my Student Loans papers soon. I also finally got the email from the reghelp desk, took them long enough, I got a faster response from the professor.

Any More of a Mess and Disapointment

Microeconomics will be a lot easier than Macroeconomics. I was surrounded by a bunch of First Year Chinese students where I was sitting. Yipee. First years.... :D I actually understand the professor. Tutorials for this class start next week. :D I hope I do well in this class.
I didn't go to Japanese, it was review, and I can do it on my own this weekend when I have it off. My mother called me, and severely upset me.
I am stuck at the university until the year ends. =/ I don't want to because there is nothing to take, and I really don't want back in Sociology. Mostly because it has to interest me or have some hands on work. I am seriously not smart enough to be going there. :( My mother knows nothing of university.
I have to stay or I will lose my loans which I kind of need. Especially if I move next year to go to elsewhere because my parents cannot financially help me, and never could, hence the reason why I have a job. Never question why I have a job, it is not a subject to touch with me.
Yea, I am still falling apart from time to time...

I Hate All This

I really don't want to be in this town. I don't want to go to this stupid university. I hate it here. I should have never went there, I had help from the most useless person ever picking universities.
I don't want to go back second semester. There is nothing to take. If I take random courses I will fail. If I don't go back I won't get my student loans for the school I am going to in the fall.
I am not going to Japanese I am too upset to go. I am going to work tonight but if I can't do it I am not staying. I can't believe I am such a weak, stupid person.
I hate this. I hate this town. I hate that university.
I want out but I am screwed...