Halloween 2011

I was kept so busy this past week working on Halloween stuff. Halloween is a huge even for the school. Every year there is a haunted house competition for all the studios, and usually the foundation year joins a studio since they don't usually get a place. This year was different; the foundation year got the student lounge, and worked with another studio which have a room in the other building which is still under construction. We did an Insane Asylum, and I got to be a guide. It was great fun though with our practice run through one of our zombies grabbed me, and I screamed. I wore my purple plaid Lolita outfit too. I also wore my glasses which I normally don't do with my Lolita outfits.

All the studios but two did a haunted house, and I went to two out of three, or four. They were really good. There were some great scares. There were other haunted houses in the city, and there was one I went to last year that was amazing but I didn't get to go to any other haunted houses. The only one I went through was the studio to win, and it was amazing. They did Fiber Hell as a theme.

Friday was Costume Contest Day. I was rather excited for this. I did a coordination Lolita of "Candy Princess." I wore my Metamorphose Candy Land Popping Balloons dress with the alice bow, socks, pink mary-janes, my wig, and a few other accessories that matched the theme. I even hunted down a cupcake shaped lollipop. I won most creative, and my roommate also won a title as well. This isn't a very flattering photo but it was the only one taken.

I watched the Nightmare Before Christmas on Friday evening with my roommates since I have never seen it before. I have to say I liked it. There are so many movies I haven't seen, because I never got to see them as a kid.

We went to a costume contest Saturday night, and it was great fun. Before this happened we had an episode of the downstairs cat escaping so we ran around in the dark looking for the cat which we eventually caught. I wore a maid costume, and I realized that it left black dye all around my waist, and where it stopped on my arms.  

Did Trick-or-Eat Monday night on the official Halloween date. This was my first time attending the event. I only borrowed my roommate's cat ears. It was a lot of fun, and I was in an outside part of the city I have never been to before. Another group's route overlapped ours so we walked for a bit, and then got lost. We did make it back to the car, and dropped our food off, and then the bus came. I met some new people seeing as my roommate found us a group to join. 

As of Friday it has officially been a year since I left university to follow something more my style, and that I got accepted to where I am currently going. I couldn't be happier. I have made some great new friends, and I am learning so much. 

I got a new brand of contact lenses, and they are a lot more comfortable. They are easier to insert, but I find them quite difficult to remove. I even have new cleaning solution with a contraption that scares me. It is mostly the solution, because I have seen, and heard the horror stories of the solution. I might be able to get coloured lenses, and my doctor will look into it. I am so happy, I may be limited to colour, but oh well. All the time my hopes go up, and down with this subject it gets really hard sometimes but I haven't given up yet.

Now it is time to let my body rest as I am beginning to get sick. I still have to focus on schoolwork though.

Something is Always Wrong

I am in so much pain, physically, emotionally, mentally.
Physically it came from work, where else would it come from. The playplace door was swinging today, and it came back, and smacked me in the back several times. Headaches. Physically ill most of the time. Sleeping? Forget about it. Maybe for a few hours but I'm rolling around, or up way to early with little sleep. Tylenol isn't working. This might require a trip to outpatients, or a clinic.
Emotionally, and mentally something is always going on.
I'm always fighting with work. I'm always getting yelled at for something, usually stupid.... No one ever listens when I speak. The usual. I get cut hours a lot. It's because I'm new, and not well liked. Am I ever liked wherever I go?
I work myself hard, extremely hard because there is nothing else for me to do.
The only thing ever on my mind is problems.
I'm on probation with student loans.... Because I didn't finish second year at Mount Allison.... I have to do well this year. I plan on working hard. If I make it that far...
I've got two people visiting me. One is actually one of my one, and only friends who sticks by me. The other girl, well... she's pushing her luck.... I have to work, but that doesn't give her the right to help ourselves to our fridge, I never said she could. She is also quite loud.... To loud for me.
I finally bought some decent groceries. The farmer's market is excellent for eggs, and bread.
I feel like an idiot for telling that guy that he is cute. It's not like what I used to do but whatever. I don't really know anyone here, and they sure don't know me. I don't like believing in people much either.
So much going on, so much faking happiness. It's ripping me to shreds.

A Really Horrible Day at Work

Places I hid today while being sick: Maintenance closet in the lobby, Public Washroom in the lobby, and on the stock shelves out back.
I blame myself for not eating properly. I also blame the neighbour's dog for waking me up every morning, very early.
They didn't notice when I would disappear for good chunks of time. They did notice when I booked it for the washroom when I had to vomit.
Literally I hate the feeling, and it's been about ten years since the last time I vomited. I do remember it makes me cry, and frustrates me.
It was McHappy day at work. It would have been a lot more fun if I didn't feel so sick, and all that happened.
I really don't know if anyone really cares there, I have no friends that I know of.

More Boringness

Applied for student loans, and what a pain in the butt process it is. Especially since I did not remember the password, and I had to call my father for his income tax information. You have to do things certain ways, and it is just plain frustrating.
I did go to work today. I am not as sick as I was, thankfully. They had me all over the store between drive-thru, and counter, and it was so confusing. I hate confusing days at work!
Going to leave the house this weekend for other than work, or groceries. Going to an open house, and the Saturday market. I also have to go to the art supply store because COPICS are on sale. Kind of a happier note.
I hate being so fake happy at work it is sickening, but I have to be...
Neighbour still is being difficult, and isn't moving out.... BLAH!
Had an entire French Class come in today, and order in French, and their French was atrocious! I felt the teacher was looking down on me, I don't remember much French. I did remember more as I went though. I will learn that language I promise.
Yea, still frustrated, and upset. One thing, one stupid thing would make me so happy, and it sucks that it will never happen.

It Just Keeps Plumetting....

I got yelled at while working today for moving to slow.
Well unless you want me to run into someone, and drop the customers food on the floor, and have to wait to have it remade go right ahead! Also I am sick, but apparently that doesn't matter... Seriously I should have called in sick this morning... I should not be there because it is a restaurant, and I am sick.
I am only there to work, I no longer care what people think of me. I have a job to do, and I am going to do it. So apparently if I call in sick they will hate, me well go ahead.
I still feel like utter crap. I can barely eat, and still not sleeping. Still sneezing m brains out... Ewww.... Frig I hate colds.
I am just watching everything just fall faster.

Happy New Year!

I would have posted sooner but after working nine hours on New Years Eve day I got hit with sickness. D: I just woke up about half an hour ago. It is 5:30a.m.
I still did go out that night.
So New Year's Eve I went to a party at a place I didn't know. It wasn't that great so we went to one of my friend's place. When I got there I did feel better. There were mostly people there from work, and before we got there, there was some unnecessary drama caused by some tard who was later arrested. We had a lot of fun. I kept spilling stuff on myself after a while. The guys were wrestling, and it really scares me when they do that because they could hurt themselves, and knock stuff over. We talked, and had fun. We got home around 2:30a.m. I stole someone's shirt. =P
I woke up the next morning with this sickness again, and I went home after, and fell asleep, and slept until when I woke up earlier.

New Year's Resolutions

- stop fearing moving, and just do it
- to make a new life for myself when I move
- work hard
- be extremely careful with money
- try to stop dwelling on the past
- to be there when people need me the most
- to get my full drivers

A Week Busy In a Sense

This week has been busy in a sense.
After getting sick Monday, and not going to work on Tuesday to recuperate, my throat bothered me Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. It's just a cold, but did it ever hot hard. I was trying Halls Fruit Breezer's for my throat, and they didn't work, so I got Fisherman's Friends Original Extra Strong, and they did something for me, but tasted disgusting. Also the manager at work made a nice Cure too.
I spent most the week playing World of Warcraft. Woot! Working, and doing art, and sleeping. I shall post on my Warcraft blog, I have exciting news, well for me. I really hope to start working in watercolours soon. I am going to teach myself.
I went out for Karaoke last night, and it was quite difficult since I was loosing my voice. I didn't stay out for long either because I was tired.
I went to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part One, and it was amazing, and they unfortunately left us at a cliff hanger. I really miss the series, and I still have to read The Half Blood Prince, and the Deathly Hallows.
I still haven't gotten an email back from Mount Allison about the financing problem...
There really isn't much else going on in my life. I hang out with my friends occasionally when I get the chance. We were going to go to the Santa Claus parade because we had a way up, and not back.
Going to decorate the tree soon, we have a half-sized one which I always adored in terms of size. Dad put it up to shape it since it is in a box for eleven months of the year.

Too Much....

I feel absolutely horrible at the moment.
I have an assignment due on the 12th, and that is after the Thanksgving weekend, and I barely have the book started.
I have my Beginner's on Thursday. I really wish I did that this summer but I kept forgetting, and I never copied down the number when I was there in July....
I missed class yesterday because I was curled up in a ball most of the day due to cramps. I missed important stuff. D: Oh my God I hate this I am actually getting sick, and suffering this year.
I am stressed out, tired, overwhelmed, and all that good stuff. I am pushing myself to do stuff, and that isn't helping either. It would be easier to drop out... I have been freaking out, and having more break downs because of all the pressure I am under.
I really don't want to do this anymore.
The semester is almost half over, and that is scaring me, the exam schedule is already out. I don't want to think about it because it is only going to sneak up on me....

Still Not Much Going On

Once again I have taken a long time to post here.
I have been mostly working, and on/off sick. It is annoying.
I did cook Tempura with my Japanese conversation partner. We used onions, carrots, avacado, potato, mushroom, and hot dogs. The hot dogs were really good. We also went to Tim Horton's the next time. I forgot about the river rafting trip so I didn't get to go. :( I also don't get to go to the Japanese Festival because I am going away again! Damn I fail I also miss their grad banquet.
School is almost back in session, and I am kind of scared. I will not be staying at Mount Allison for a 3rd year, and I am looking into other places for plans, and shall be working on that throughout the school year.