Another Day Down

I have too many things going on.
I have my Beginner's permit test tomorrow. I have been trying to study for that. I really want to pass, and get it over with. You have to pay to write the test, and then pay for your permit. It comes to over 100$ by the time you are done... That's expensive.
We didn't do anything in Economics lab, we just signed attendance, and then left. I really don't like dragging myself in for labs, but since we got done early I got to go pay for the Beginner's Permit test.
Went to Japanese, and I missed Monday's class, and Sensei expects me to know what is going on... Hell no. I managed to do some good today, it wasn't that bad. Our Intermediate course packs are finally in which I purchased yesterday. I also finally purchased a scarf which I have been looking for for years considering the clothing store used to be separate from the university.
Nothing new still stressed, tired, overwhelmed....
I want to back to May, and June when I was happiest when I still believed in love...
I have to go see my Japanese Conversation Partner tomorrow. I wonder how that will go....

Too Much....

I feel absolutely horrible at the moment.
I have an assignment due on the 12th, and that is after the Thanksgving weekend, and I barely have the book started.
I have my Beginner's on Thursday. I really wish I did that this summer but I kept forgetting, and I never copied down the number when I was there in July....
I missed class yesterday because I was curled up in a ball most of the day due to cramps. I missed important stuff. D: Oh my God I hate this I am actually getting sick, and suffering this year.
I am stressed out, tired, overwhelmed, and all that good stuff. I am pushing myself to do stuff, and that isn't helping either. It would be easier to drop out... I have been freaking out, and having more break downs because of all the pressure I am under.
I really don't want to do this anymore.
The semester is almost half over, and that is scaring me, the exam schedule is already out. I don't want to think about it because it is only going to sneak up on me....

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When was the last time I posted here. *goes, and checks* Okay so I left of in the middle of March. It's April now, and exams are next week.
I was thinking I was going to have an awesome summer because I thought I might get the summer resident assistant job. I was the perfect candidate, but of course the old students got the positions, and I am left with nothing to do all summer again. I was looking so forward to that too.
I work three times this week all closing shifts, and I have already gone after the store manager once about me being a university student but apparently he doesn't care. I am going to look for a new job, I won't be staying there much longer.
I am stressed, and overwhelmed to the max. Nothing has been good lately, and all I have been doing is crying.
I dyed my hair black today.