Another Day Down

I have too many things going on.
I have my Beginner's permit test tomorrow. I have been trying to study for that. I really want to pass, and get it over with. You have to pay to write the test, and then pay for your permit. It comes to over 100$ by the time you are done... That's expensive.
We didn't do anything in Economics lab, we just signed attendance, and then left. I really don't like dragging myself in for labs, but since we got done early I got to go pay for the Beginner's Permit test.
Went to Japanese, and I missed Monday's class, and Sensei expects me to know what is going on... Hell no. I managed to do some good today, it wasn't that bad. Our Intermediate course packs are finally in which I purchased yesterday. I also finally purchased a scarf which I have been looking for for years considering the clothing store used to be separate from the university.
Nothing new still stressed, tired, overwhelmed....
I want to back to May, and June when I was happiest when I still believed in love...
I have to go see my Japanese Conversation Partner tomorrow. I wonder how that will go....

Not Doing So Great in Class

So today I actually made it to my Microeconomics Tutorial Lab, no rain stopping me this week. I miss my tutorial leader from last year even though I could hardly understand him. I did really well with assignments, this year I got my first one back, I am not doing good in any of my classes because at the moment I am unwillingly being forced to attend this hell hole. I wrote my Beginner's Japanese mini review exam today, sat down in front of the test, and forgot everything. I mean I love Japanese but I am so miserable that I can't even remember any of the language.
Needless to say I also don't trust a few people, and they really don't understand my situation, I don't think anyone understands the gravity of my situation except for my few very close town friends, and my awesome friend in the next province.
Only three months, and one acceptance letter away from leaving this town.

First Day Done

History is so different this year, and also in a different building. We now have three books to read but we also have tutorials for said novels. The professor also took the forty page, professional audience article out of the course, that I didn't read last year. I really have to work hard in this class, and keep up with the readings. I talked to the professor, and if I need help I am going to go get help.
I went to visit a friend, she is now in a new dorm, and her boyfriend is the Resident Assistant. It only hasn't been five minutes but I cannot stand him, and giving him that position has made him more of a prick. I can't confide in my friends that are friends with him, and tell them this because they will run back, and tell him. I don't even think I should post it here, but whatever. How am I suppose to know the house rules when I don't live in a dorm.
I don't know how long it is going to last but I am falling apart now, and I can't stand it. I am weak, and vulnerable like before.