Christmas Gifts

What did everyone get for Christmas? I got a few things, not much but I don't really care.

City of Glass by: Cassandra Clare
City of Ashes by: Cassandra Clare
City of Bones by: Cassandra Clare
The Shattering by: Christie Golden
Chronicles of War by: Christie Golden, Jeff Grubb, Aaron Rosenberg
Chobits Omnibus 1 by: CLAMP
Harvest Moon: Tree of Tranquility for the Wii
Kirby's Epic Yarn for the Wii
Hello Kitty Comforter
Pajamas with Cupcake Print
The Magic Bullet
Wal-Mart Gift Card
A Ball of Hair Elastics
Hand Cream
A Pile of Chocolate
Money (that is going towards college next year)

I myself didn't do a lot of Christmas presents, I only did a few for good friends.
My brother being spoiled like he is got an Xbox 360... Yea, not even going to go there right now.
The New Year is approaching so that means resolutions, and a new year.

Christmas Doesn't Feel Like Christmas This Year

Merry Christmas Everyone!
Christmas isn't what it quite used to be... It really doesn't feel like Christmas this year....
As a child I remember going to the neighbour's with my Grandmother when she was delivering presents, and we used to have such nice neighbours. My Grandfather would order Chinese, and we would have it together on Christmas Eve. On Christmas Day we would have supper at both of my Grandparent's house sometimes, and other times just one. I would get to see all my Uncle's, and Aunt's, my Mother's siblings too. My other Aunt, my Dad's Sister still comes down to see us.
It all fell apart though after my parents separated, and one of Grandfather's passed away, and my other Grandmother was placed in a Nursing Home. This all happened relatively around the same time too.
It hasn't snowed much, it has mostly been raining....
I love tradition, it's repetitive, yet beautiful, and keeps people together...

Christmas Eve Day

Started early in the morning because I forgot to turn off my alarm from the day before when I worked open/set-up. I stayed at a friend's overnight so we hung out for the morning.
My mother came over for our traditional supper of Chinese food started by my Grandparents, and I really miss having them around. I then spent some time with my mother which is a rare occasion.
I later tried to drop off gifts, but someone wasn't home, the other friend was. I stopped by another house to drop off my other gifts, and they invited me in. We talked about work... Oh well what else can we do, we all work there. It was a great time. We drove around, and looked at Christmas decorations in the town, and they dropped me off at home.
Merry Christmas everyone!

Concentrating On The Good and The Bad

It has been quite the week.
I got home from work Monday, turned on my computer, and the first thing I read made me cry. My good friend's house was flooded, so bad they had to be evacuated by boat. She had so much going for her too, and it just crashed to the ground in an instant. :(
I celebrated my friend's birthday a few days early on Friday. We did Karaoke, and it was so much fun, I love karaoke.
I hung out with a friend yesterday, and we watched Disney.
My neck has been sore for the last few days, and it is driving me nuts.
Now I am off to wrap Christmas Presents.

A Good Week With Christmas Shopping

It has been a pretty good week, and I am still off until tomorrow night.
I am suppose to be doing something for another artist but I hate to be rushed, it really stresses me out, you cannot rush an artist. But I finally got it done.
Wednesday after work my awesome friend came over, and did gel nails for me again. Correctly this time, last time I was her guinea pig candidate, and I hated them, I love them now. They are black tip gels. I went to Tim Horton's with some co-workers who are dating, and it felt so awkward... Tim's has debit now. I tried the new Candy Cane doughnut, and hot chocolate, the doughnut was boring! I liked the hot chocolate, it had a peppermint flavour to it.
Thursday morning I got up early to go Christmas shopping in the city with my father. We only went to Wal-Mart, EBGames/Gamestop, HMV, and Chapters. I finally found Harevst Moon: Grand Bazaar again, and did not pass up on buying it. I bought my friend's birthday, and Christmas present, those two things are only four days apart. I picked up Arathas: Rise of the Lich King, and that was it. Later on in the day I got hit with a killer migraine.
Friday I went to the city with co-workers, and it was a lot more fun. I picked up the Cataclysm expansion at Wal-Mart. I found a new hat at Aldo Accessories, as well as an origami crane necklace; I find my favourite accessories there all the time. Old Navy really has some good deals on, I managed to find a Secret Santa gift for work. I also picked up a Christmas present with someone we were with, and they didn't even know it. Then I almost dropped it on the floor, and it is breakable. I picked up a present for my dad, and another co-worker. We went for food at the food court, and I grabbed Chinese. I look forward to the fortune cookies, mine said I am next in line in my firm for a promotion. We all laughed. There was this guy at one store his hair was half purple, half black, I thought it was hot. We were in the city for seven to eight hours, and it was a girl's day. I have a lot of my Christmas shopping done.
I love sleeping in on the days I can because I really need it because of work. So today my friend, and I watched The Beauty and The Beast, which is now my favourite Disney movie, and Vampires Suck. I also am getting her to play World of Warcraft. It was a fun day. My brother had his birthday party today, and all his little friends kept coming into my room. There was cake, and I love cake, a lot.

Negative Thinking

Life has been falling apart since September. I can't help but think negatively.... It's all I know, I also constantly hate myself.
Work is hell every single day.
I did have one fun day though. I help decorate at a friend's house, because they didn't call me to decorate at work... We had great fun.
Also went Christmas shopping with Dad. Well I know what my Brother is getting for Christmas, Dad got it before now. My brother is so spoiled, must be nice.
I literally work my butt off now to get what I want, and when I was younger I didn't have a job, my parents wouldn't give me money, yet they give my brother money all the time.

A Week Busy In a Sense

This week has been busy in a sense.
After getting sick Monday, and not going to work on Tuesday to recuperate, my throat bothered me Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. It's just a cold, but did it ever hot hard. I was trying Halls Fruit Breezer's for my throat, and they didn't work, so I got Fisherman's Friends Original Extra Strong, and they did something for me, but tasted disgusting. Also the manager at work made a nice Cure too.
I spent most the week playing World of Warcraft. Woot! Working, and doing art, and sleeping. I shall post on my Warcraft blog, I have exciting news, well for me. I really hope to start working in watercolours soon. I am going to teach myself.
I went out for Karaoke last night, and it was quite difficult since I was loosing my voice. I didn't stay out for long either because I was tired.
I went to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part One, and it was amazing, and they unfortunately left us at a cliff hanger. I really miss the series, and I still have to read The Half Blood Prince, and the Deathly Hallows.
I still haven't gotten an email back from Mount Allison about the financing problem...
There really isn't much else going on in my life. I hang out with my friends occasionally when I get the chance. We were going to go to the Santa Claus parade because we had a way up, and not back.
Going to decorate the tree soon, we have a half-sized one which I always adored in terms of size. Dad put it up to shape it since it is in a box for eleven months of the year.

Another Crazy Week Done

I like having time to myself. Apparently work doesn't care though.
So this week I spent time with a friend again, and we went to the city. I bought one of those huge cans of popcorn with three different flavours because I have never had one before, and I wanted the tin. Hello Kitty for the win. So we adventured in the city. It's been a long time since I have been hyper, and I was very hyper the other night. We had a good laugh at Wal-Mart. Went to the Christmas Craft sale at the hospital. Also visited someone in the hospital. Went out again today, and got a calendar for next year, I am going to miss my Hello Kitty calendar, but now I have an Alice in Wonderland one.
I stayed the night and we watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. It was awesome! Snape killed Dumbledore. D: So I now have to read that book, and the Deathly Hallows as well. Love that series.
Went back to church this morning, and I honestly miss being there. I am going back to choir tomorrow night too hopefully.

The Week is Almost Done, But About to Begin for Myself

So I have a few things after me at the moment.
DHL once again has pulled the old brokerage, but this time under a different company. Also Mount Allison wants their money, but I was told I only had to pay the penalty... They sent me the statement, and I just looked at it, guess where I am going tomorrow after work...
Visited the high school yesterday. It is so hard to visit the high school because most of the teachers I had left.
Also went to Tim Horton's with a friend before hand. Love going out for hot chocolate, or coffee.
Going back to church Sunday!!!! Making sure I go!
Apparently doing something else Friday night instead of Midnight Madness, change of plans. Going to the city with a friend.
Looking forward to the weekend.

I Have a Little Bit of a Life at the Moment

Currently Reading: Sense & Sensibility by: Jane Austen
Last Movie Watched: Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle
Last Television Show Watched: The Cake Boss
Current Video Game: World of Warcraft

Working full-time does not mean I have a set schedule, it just means I work 3-5 at least 8 hour shifts if not more with smaller shifts. It leaves me time to sleep, and not do much else. But I got to do stuff this weekend.
I had a girl's night with my friend, and her mom. We watched the Prince, and Me 1, and 2. They should have used the same actors for the second one, the first one was better. We also watched Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle which is full of fake stunts.
They have a chinchilla, and I am in love with them now. I really like them, they aren't as annoying as guinea pigs.
Did some art. Watched Cake Boss, his cakes are amazing! Also watched Gimme Sugar Miami, which was interesting.
I have to read Half Blood Prince, and the Deathly Hallows from the Harry Potter series. I rather read the books, and then watch the movies. I read/watched Order of the Phoenix last because I remember crying when they killed Sirius.
I am so happy I have time to read, and what not. Also play WoW. One of my friend's wants me at Level 80.
This week I plan on visiting my high school to see the art teacher, getting my contacts on Friday because that is the only day the optometrist is open, and going to Midnight Madness Friday night. Might go have hot chocolate some night.
I am working on thinking out costumes for next year. I really want to do Kobato Hanato, from Kobato, but she has so many outfit choices.

A Trip to the Dentist Plus Adventures with Friends

So today I went to the dentist, I should have went back in September but I kept forgetting to call. I called last Friday, and the office was closed at 3. I got called Monday, and had my appointment today.
Routine cleaning, and new x-rays, and fixing my "retainer."
I usually hate the cleaning, and I did today. I miss the old hygienist. :( There is always a lot of scrapping, and I do not like the noise, or the feeling, especially when they are close to the gums. She polished my teeth, after scrapping, and then scrapped again. The dentist came in, and put a little more adherent on my "retainer", and he did it too fast so he had to come back, and fix it.
If I had real retainers, and not just two metal wires glued in my mouth =/ then you wouldn't have to do that. I admit after having braces I was irresponsible when I had them, but I had real retainers before, and they weren't that bad so just, arghhh. I didn't say anything though... I should have. I have had spacers too. But the thing is no matter how irresponsible I was I have never had a cavity... Weird.
My tongue touched the adhesive so they got it off with the suction tube, and the tube was touching my tongue, and I could taste the stuff, and it was gross.
Also, I don't have a very big mouth so it is very hard to open my mouth wide. They seem to forget that, a lot, especially when I had braces.
So my over-bite relapsed because of the wire. Real retainers please? Also I wish the calcium deposits on my front teeth weren't there. Just so many problems. I don't even have all my adult teeth, quite a few of those were pulled, along with my wisdom teeth, which required surgery.
Went out with a friend after. We had lunch. Someone else we knew showed up, but has been really awkward lately.
This past weekend I put together a shelf with a friend. I am really bad, I must take after my Father. I made two huge poles, and I wasn't suppose to. I was thinking the shelf was bigger. I re-organized/re-cleaned my room to diminish garbage, and things I do not need.

Halloween Weekend Vacation

I was away for a week! It was great! (Minus work calling)
I left on the later bus Thursday afternoon, instead of in the morning. The bus arrived at it's destination ten minutes late, but oh well. Also it is the later bus that connects to the city, and it never is usaully busy, well it was that day. My friend picked me up, and she was driving her brother's car, so I didn't recognize it because I hadn't seen it before. We hit this freak hail storm (ice pellets if you want to be politically correct). It was insane, and coming down quite hard. When we got home their dog almost knocked me out again. They have a new kitten because their cat disappeared two months ago. :(
Friday I wandered the town, and got lost. (Nothing new there). I was looking for the art store, and I went the wrong way, I was looking for another store but I forgot where the street was, and kept walking in circles for most of the day. We went out for some awesome spaghetti for supper with some others, and then we went to this fantastic haunted house tour fundraiser. Someone left face crayons in the bathroom so we drew the rainbow lines on our face, and we joked around about screaming rainbow when we were scared. It was very well done, and very scary. It is a great fundraiser. We went to a party but it was quite boring. We got ready at another friend's house, and I left half the stuff I needed where I was staying. I spent a few days reading at their place, reading Alice in Wonderland and Through the Looking glass which I finished. I started reading Sense and Sensibility. I got in trouble for loitering at a mall... D: I was reading but since I am not from their I don't even know the rules of the mall, or the fact that the mall had rules like that. We went out one night on the town, and it was some great fun. I kind of figured out the Metro Transit system there too.
I met up with my cousins one day, and we out for lunch. We then went to visit graves of some of the family, my Father's grandparents (My Great Grandparents), My Great Aunt, and Uncle, and another two that I don,t know the relation. Also we went to a cousin's grave that passed away last year... After his death I find that my Father's side of the family fell apart.
Good news. I got accepted to New Brunswick Community College of Craft and Design. The letter was sitting on my bed when I got home. I start in Fall 2011. I am very excited, and I hope to be moving in January.
I cannot believe it is already November. I am very excited for 2011.

A Bunch of Good News

My transcripts arrived on the 19th of October, and were sent on the 14th of September. All I can say is that is is about time! Yay! *prances around happily*
I officially dropped out today. I had to wait so I was deeply engrossed in my copy of Alice in Wonderland, and Through the Looking Glass. I gave back my mail box key, and my student ID. I have a payment on my account due to a cheque bouncing, and it is completely my fault.
Now I need to sell my textbooks. I have a whole pile of them in a box. I shall not part with my Japanese textbooks/dictionaries though. I might probably sell them on Amazon.
I had to email my conversation partner about me dropping out to let her know. I feel really bead but there is a waiting list so they will find her a new partner who is hopefully better than I am.
Feels so much better to be free.
I will only post on this when something occurs, which is rare, it is better to watch my work blog, because I work everyday, which there is a link to in my profile as well as a World of Warcraft blog.

Update Time!

I was recently informed of some awesome plans, and if they fall through I will be really upset.... It is all about moving next year, and that new college, and friends coming too, and I am so excited. Yay for my head being constantly stuck in the future daydreaming when I am not reminiscing the past or am just living at the moment. :D I am so crazy.
I finally told my father I dropped out... I cannot tell my mother though. I am 19 though, so she can't really stop me. I still haven't officialized (is that even a word?) the drop out. I shall this week Tuesday after work. A few things occurred this week that I had to deal with, ugh male employees. I really need to get my butt in gear.
I have to spend quite a bit of time sleeping so I can get up for m morning shifts, it feels great to be back full-time with counter shifts. Love mornings. I have been sleepy during my night shifts recently too, and I do not like dealing with night shifts.
Also since I am starting to pay student loans, and my credit card, and I have my cell phone bill it should be fun. Yay responsibility, and a job. =D Cannot wait to get my redemption on my glasses, that should help since I put that on my credit. Also some of it was university stuff.
Going away for a week Thursday! I am so excited! Yay! Halloween is coming too!!!!
I have to work for the next four days before though... Oh well. :D

So....

So I paid a visit to my high school today to see if my transcripts were sent... They were sent on the 14th of September, and it is now October 18th... Where are they?!
I am going back tomorrow to see if I can get a copy faxed to the number I got when I called admissions this morning... This is really irritating.
I have not yet officially drop out, as far as the university is concerned, but I am going to do that tomorrow too I suppose. Busy, busy me... Blah.

Turn The Page, and Your Done

I have an assignment due tomorrow, I barely have the book read, I just dropped all my courses but one because I have to go see Student Life to drop out completely.
I cannot force myself to stay there, and do the work, and keep doing bad.
I am 19, and I do not care what my parents say, let alone anyone else. What am I going to do with a Bachelor of Arts? NOTHING! That's what... Seriously what can you do with a BA other than nothing.
This chapter of my life is over. I'll screw up my life as much as I please.
Hopefully I can get into the art college.

My Weekend Away

Soo Friday I got on the bus to go see Elena. Her birthday present of course came in the day I left so I didn't get to bring it with me. Damn you customs!
On Friday night we went out to the Fireside a really nice restaurant/bar. The checker was looking at my I'd for an awful long time. Her mother, and her mother's friend came along too. They have lovely martinis but the alcohol, and I weren't getting along so I only had one. They also have amazing food. Their potatoes looked amazing. So good!
Saturday we went shopping. Found some really nice fake Lois Vuiton (probably spelled that wrong), and Chanel things. Went to Winners and tried to find clothes, and a new bag. We went to Sushi Namni because Doraku was closed.
Work calls me twice, no one ever writes down when I am going away... I work tonight too.
Stopped at Japanese Paradise and picked up some Pocky, koala chocolate, milk tea, and more curry mix.

A Good Day, For the Most Part

So, I passed my Beginner's and I only had three multiple choice wrong giving me an 85%, which makes me very happy meaning I passed! I don't have to fret about it anymore. :D I was so scared, and didn't know what to expect. It was expensive though...
So I went, and got my new glasses which I enjoy. I love Italian Design frames.
I now have jeans that will fit my arse! Big laugh eh considering how small I am... I am now a size 1, and I never fit in 00. So that means I gained weight!!! Yay! And yes I am actually trying to gain weight.
I got mail from the Art College, and apparently I did not fill out the entire application so it was withdrawn, and I have to call tomorrow before I go away. I am going down at the end of the month so then I can possibly fix it then. I was hoping it was an acceptance letter. Well I guess you can't have too much happiness in one day... =/
I am going away for the weekend to see a friend that I haven't seen since February. She is going to teach me Gyaru. I am also going to be reading on the bus so that I can do my essay for Tuesday. Damn time goes by fast!!!!

Another Day Down

I have too many things going on.
I have my Beginner's permit test tomorrow. I have been trying to study for that. I really want to pass, and get it over with. You have to pay to write the test, and then pay for your permit. It comes to over 100$ by the time you are done... That's expensive.
We didn't do anything in Economics lab, we just signed attendance, and then left. I really don't like dragging myself in for labs, but since we got done early I got to go pay for the Beginner's Permit test.
Went to Japanese, and I missed Monday's class, and Sensei expects me to know what is going on... Hell no. I managed to do some good today, it wasn't that bad. Our Intermediate course packs are finally in which I purchased yesterday. I also finally purchased a scarf which I have been looking for for years considering the clothing store used to be separate from the university.
Nothing new still stressed, tired, overwhelmed....
I want to back to May, and June when I was happiest when I still believed in love...
I have to go see my Japanese Conversation Partner tomorrow. I wonder how that will go....

Too Much....

I feel absolutely horrible at the moment.
I have an assignment due on the 12th, and that is after the Thanksgving weekend, and I barely have the book started.
I have my Beginner's on Thursday. I really wish I did that this summer but I kept forgetting, and I never copied down the number when I was there in July....
I missed class yesterday because I was curled up in a ball most of the day due to cramps. I missed important stuff. D: Oh my God I hate this I am actually getting sick, and suffering this year.
I am stressed out, tired, overwhelmed, and all that good stuff. I am pushing myself to do stuff, and that isn't helping either. It would be easier to drop out... I have been freaking out, and having more break downs because of all the pressure I am under.
I really don't want to do this anymore.
The semester is almost half over, and that is scaring me, the exam schedule is already out. I don't want to think about it because it is only going to sneak up on me....

This And That

OMG! OMG! OMG!
I passed my first essay with a 6.1/10!!! This is the same essay that I failed last year. I do need to work on organization, and writing style, but I am very, very pleased that I passed this essay!!
I have officially met the two half Japanese twins. Really nice, and funny. I just wish people didn't have to tell others the stupid things about me, what a great friend eh? This is one person I don't trust either.
I walked in today, it was sunny, and there was a nice breeze blowing, go to lunch with a friend, and we go to leave, and what is it doing? Pouring rain. Screw off... Can't find a decent normal umbrella in town either...
Japanese tutorial lab today. Like any other day got to be stupid again. :D HOORAH. *sarcasm* Talked with a friend after. Finally mailed my Confirmation of Earnings for Student Loans. Grabbed food for supper at the grocery store.
Now I shall go into a rant.
2 months in counting, not including this month until I get out of this stupid town!
It will be better to not have to see people I cannot stand. You know I had a boyfriend too, we didn't hang off each other, and spend every moment together, and all that stuff. But there are people that do that, and those are usually the people who value their boyfriends over their friends. My thoughts on that are: Go die in a fire. <3 I am not the only immature one. WAIT!!!! I am always immature, according to everyone else that is.

Having a Lovely Time

Currently blogging through my phone, because the stupid wireless isn't working at the moment.
I haven't been to class since last Thursday, so I missed Japanese, and there was homework that I didn't understand so once again I get to look like an idiot.
I really don't think any of my university "friends" understand my situation at all, and at current I do not trust one either.
I am just having a lovely time. I had another breakdown last night. I really want to drop out but I have to finish this semester.

Not Doing So Great in Class

So today I actually made it to my Microeconomics Tutorial Lab, no rain stopping me this week. I miss my tutorial leader from last year even though I could hardly understand him. I did really well with assignments, this year I got my first one back, I am not doing good in any of my classes because at the moment I am unwillingly being forced to attend this hell hole. I wrote my Beginner's Japanese mini review exam today, sat down in front of the test, and forgot everything. I mean I love Japanese but I am so miserable that I can't even remember any of the language.
Needless to say I also don't trust a few people, and they really don't understand my situation, I don't think anyone understands the gravity of my situation except for my few very close town friends, and my awesome friend in the next province.
Only three months, and one acceptance letter away from leaving this town.

My Mind is Made Up

I snapped walking across campus to Japanese today. This is after I went to buy a new Minna No Nihongo: Translation and Grammatical Notes because the one I bought last year is currently trying to mold, and is still quite wet....
Why stay at this university and be miserable? I really want to drop out right now, on the spot. I will wait though... Until this semester is over. I don't care about student loans because where I am going I can earn that tuition easily, not a problem. I really don't care what my mother says, it's my life, and I will do what I want. The shifts I worked as full time were insane, and I was making overtime almost every week because I am reliable, and I take shifts, and I never miss shifts.

An Evening Out

So tonight I went to Tim Horton's with a friend, and my conversation partner, and two of her friends. Once again it is still awkward. I cannot stand it.
The other two asked if I was from Canada too which was hilarious. One of them likes potatoes, but she can't eat them or something, and that was a good laugh too. They thought my high school friend was twenty.
I only usually go there for doughnuts, but tonight I had one of their sandwiches, it was good. :3
They are always scared to gain weight. There is nothing wrong with a little weight gain. Am I the only one looking to gain some weight here?
My friend dropped a piece of chicken right into my purse.
Apparently Wendy's gets busy. I wouldn't know that because I barely ever go there.
On other news, remember how I was hating on my life yesterday. I lost a friend, no biggie, I am a two-faced *****. Oh well. Life goes on, and it wouldn't be the first time either. At least that is one problem less to deal with. :D

Keeps Getting Better

One piece of good news!!! I finally am enrolled in Sociology. :D
The sushi party with the Japanese society was today. I felt really awkward. I don't have the drive to be social anymore. I just don't have the ability to talk to people... I feel like I am watching myself sometimes because there are things that I did last year that I would die if I ever did again.
This year just keeps getting better, and better.
I cannot wait to leave this town next year.

Awkwardness and Student Loans Problems

Last night I spent quite a bit of time working on my Microeconomics assignment, all by myself. It really isn't hard.
I went shopping with the Japanese Society club tonight for the sushi party tomorrow. I find it really awkward for some reason to be walking around in a group full of Japanese students.
I just checked my student account balance and once again Student Loans failed to give me enough to pay this semester. It is actually less than last year....
So screwed....

Week Two and I am Sooo Busy

I only have three course, so apparently that is enough to consider me a full time student. (Microeconomics, Intermediate Japanese, Asian History)
Even though I have only three classes I am busier than when I had five courses. I am betting it on the fact that my Asian History class, and my Intermediate Japanese are both second year courses. I am still considered first year because I do not have the credits to be a second year student since I failed the two courses. (Sociology, Asian History)
I probably will take Sociology next semester, I need to because I would feel better if I could get rid of all my failing marks. Then all I need is one more course.
I just finished my Microeconomics assignment due tomorrow. There was only one question I did not understand.
Also the other day when I walked to school in the pouring rain my books, most of them in my backpack are still wet, and that is really upsetting.

It Just Got Worse

Worst day ever so far this year.
I wasn't feeling well this morning so I didn't go to Economics. I woke up put the stuff on the door for the delivery I was suppose to get, went back to sleep, woke up later, and it was there. It was sunny out then. I left at either the right, or wrong time for my economics lab, which I missed because I got into town late. Why? Because it was pouring so hard that down by where I live it was flooded with water on the streets, and I walked in it. The manholes were clogged so the town had to come, and remove the clogging. Just as they came this car didn't slow down, and you know excessive speed, and a lot of water on the street results in a big wave. If I didn't step back I would have been soaked, and even more upset. I wore tights, and a skirt, and I was soaked from the waist down. I bought warm sweatpants from the school bookstore. My feet were wet for four hours though.
I went, and got my student loan. Apparently they won't fax my confirmation of earnings but they did last year. I am short some money... AGAIN. Just like first semester last year.
I did make it to Japanese class though. The guy I used to like as me a really difficult question. It really upset me, and I still do not like him, why did I use to have a crush on him. =/ My phone was vibrating very loudly during class twice... First time it was Rogers calling to tell me the phone I ordered was in. The second time it was work, trying to get me to come in but I already was closing.
I was so pissed. I really hate this town, the university, my job, and my life.

Another Rut...Great

Oh God.
I HAVE NO DRIVE FOR ANYTHING RIGHT NOW FOR ANYTHING IN THIS TOWN.
I went to economics this morning, and that was okay. I went to meal hall, and studied with a friend for the Japanese Review quiz. I didn't even really study. I had no clue what to expect, I was thinking monster huge, but it was like our normal daily tests so I didn't do well. I am even having a hard time in Japanese. By the time I got in the class there was one seat left...right next to the know it all who I had a crush on last year. God knows why I liked this boy, because he is a prick. The class is smaller now too, and that makes me really nervous. We had a few good laughs over cute little mistakes. Also Sensei said she was going to start competing with how much homework she gives us versus other professors as a joke.
I wish I could just leave....

Problems and Good Things

NARGH!
I am so angry at myself. I am having a hard time talking to my conversation partner. The one I befriended this summer we automatically clicked. This is just like the one from last fall, but last fall I still liked anime so I am blaming some of it on that.
I am so nervous, and when I am nervous I talk fast. We went to the Cafe tonight, and I didn't talk much at first. I warmed up better with the scavenger hunt.
I don't have to take Sociology next semester. *happy face* The fail is going to stay on my record though. *sad face* I have to go figure out next semester, I have to take three or four courses to be considered full time to get my student loans, and I currently have one next semester. I am going to go get help.
I went to the activities fair. I am helping with the Japanese Club, I signed up for Swing dancing, Badminton, and the culinary club.

Making the Best of It

I can't even get into Sociology next semester I keep getting the Faculty consent line from the registration site. I emailed the Professor of the course, and I hope she is nicer than the other Professor I emailed. I NEED to get back in. I didn't end up going to class today either, and I doubt we did anything in History. I worked last night so I was tired when I got home, but I stayed up and played a bit or World of Warcraft, and talked to a friend.
I am still not impressed about being stuck here. =/ I am going to fix my mistakes, and hopefully leave with a GPA that gets me out of Academic Probation.
The boss better fill out my Student Loans papers soon. I also finally got the email from the reghelp desk, took them long enough, I got a faster response from the professor.

Any More of a Mess and Disapointment

Microeconomics will be a lot easier than Macroeconomics. I was surrounded by a bunch of First Year Chinese students where I was sitting. Yipee. First years.... :D I actually understand the professor. Tutorials for this class start next week. :D I hope I do well in this class.
I didn't go to Japanese, it was review, and I can do it on my own this weekend when I have it off. My mother called me, and severely upset me.
I am stuck at the university until the year ends. =/ I don't want to because there is nothing to take, and I really don't want back in Sociology. Mostly because it has to interest me or have some hands on work. I am seriously not smart enough to be going there. :( My mother knows nothing of university.
I have to stay or I will lose my loans which I kind of need. Especially if I move next year to go to elsewhere because my parents cannot financially help me, and never could, hence the reason why I have a job. Never question why I have a job, it is not a subject to touch with me.
Yea, I am still falling apart from time to time...

I Hate All This

I really don't want to be in this town. I don't want to go to this stupid university. I hate it here. I should have never went there, I had help from the most useless person ever picking universities.
I don't want to go back second semester. There is nothing to take. If I take random courses I will fail. If I don't go back I won't get my student loans for the school I am going to in the fall.
I am not going to Japanese I am too upset to go. I am going to work tonight but if I can't do it I am not staying. I can't believe I am such a weak, stupid person.
I hate this. I hate this town. I hate that university.
I want out but I am screwed...

To Hell With Sociology

So I had my entire schedule memorization screwed up. Sociology was this morning but to hell with it now, and I missed it anyways because I thought it was three days a week, and not two. I emailed the professor, and she told me the class is full very bluntly too. I cannot stand her. I went to school with her kids, must be nice to be stuck up, and have money. I really want that off my transcript, and I don't know what to do about it, or who to go to.
I have had it with this university. I want out. I am not smart enough to be going there.

First Day Done

History is so different this year, and also in a different building. We now have three books to read but we also have tutorials for said novels. The professor also took the forty page, professional audience article out of the course, that I didn't read last year. I really have to work hard in this class, and keep up with the readings. I talked to the professor, and if I need help I am going to go get help.
I went to visit a friend, she is now in a new dorm, and her boyfriend is the Resident Assistant. It only hasn't been five minutes but I cannot stand him, and giving him that position has made him more of a prick. I can't confide in my friends that are friends with him, and tell them this because they will run back, and tell him. I don't even think I should post it here, but whatever. How am I suppose to know the house rules when I don't live in a dorm.
I don't know how long it is going to last but I am falling apart now, and I can't stand it. I am weak, and vulnerable like before.

Classes Begin Tomorrow

I met my new Japanese Conversation Partner tonight. I enjoy her, but I really miss the one I met this summer. She gave me a cute Hello Kitty cellphone charm, and chocolate. :D I met many others tonight to. They are all very surprised I can speak some Japanese. I really enjoy the program. I was being very shy, and was nervous as heck though. I ran into my friend from last year, and just about cried. I am very unstable due to the fact that last night my boyfriend, and I broke up. I'll live though, and I won't be falling in love again anytime soon, and it was very nice to see her. Classes start tomorrow, but I don't have my history class until 1. :D Yay. I have classes at 7:30 on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday though. xD I cut my hours thank god.

Textbooks and Still Not In Sociology

So for courses I have Intermediate Japanese, Microeconomics, and Asian History. I bought the textbooks I need, and the History Professor added another book to read to the course. Also there is a book to read for Microeconomics.
Well I am still not in Sociology, and no one was at the registration help desk she helped one guy, and then disappeared, needless to say I wasn't impressed, and didn't stand around. I wanted to deal with this today, guess I will go talk to the professor on Wednesday... Apparently the topic this year is poverty, now that I can understand. I just need to see which books I need, and if the textbooks are the same. Screw this faculty's consent I got back into History so why not Sociology, what is so special about it?
I just emailed my conversation partner, hopefully I can meet her before the event on Monday night. :D

Course Registration and Plans

Okayy so I registered for courses, all but one, and I might drop another one...
I can't get back into Sociology at the moment but I got back in my History course that I failed. Apparently I need the faculty's consent to get back into Sociology.
There are no courses I want to take. University is nothing like I thought it would be... I need to get out so after first semester I am going to work my butt off to pass those courses, and I am not coming back second semester.
I cannot do it. I am not smart enough for university, and like I said there is nothing I want to take.
I should have stuck to art, and what not but no. I just didn't know what I want to do. Life is confusing in that sense.
I am going to be helping out with the Japanese Society this year too.
The new Japanese students are here! I cannot wait to meet my Conversation partner on Monday. =D

Bye Bye :(

The Japanese Student's left yesterday, and I didn't get to say goodbye. It's because I have been working like crazy, and I need to sleep. :( I really loved my conversation partner. I at least have her email. I missed the festival, graduation, and talent show because I was away, and work. I really hate that.
I know my conversation partner's name for the fall. I can't wait to meet her but I will miss the one I because she was amazing.
Now on another note...
The thing is though I let this program that could allow me to go to Japan tie me to my hometown university. My first choice was Animation at New Brunswick Community College Miramichi, and I was intimidated by the program so I didn't bother, this is back when you actually had to do a portfolio. I applied to Saint Thomas and University New Brunswick both for Education but the background check papers where too much for me. By the time it came around I said screw it Mount Allison for the Japanese program. Also the fact that it is cheaper. I really shouldn't have done that. I have a lot of regrets about that. Somethings happened that were good but that was after the school year was over, but I kept falling apart all over the place. I cannot let that happen again this year. I am retaking the courses I failed. I won't be staying though. I am completely scraping the Japan idea for teaching. Maybe I will go there someday. I don't have the GPA to be accepted in the program anyway. Holding onto something is what I am good at. I'd feel better at arts, something more hands on. Most of my courses in high school were arts related. I know where I am going, and I am excited. I feel bad for wasting money at Mount Allison.

Still Not Much Going On

Once again I have taken a long time to post here.
I have been mostly working, and on/off sick. It is annoying.
I did cook Tempura with my Japanese conversation partner. We used onions, carrots, avacado, potato, mushroom, and hot dogs. The hot dogs were really good. We also went to Tim Horton's the next time. I forgot about the river rafting trip so I didn't get to go. :( I also don't get to go to the Japanese Festival because I am going away again! Damn I fail I also miss their grad banquet.
School is almost back in session, and I am kind of scared. I will not be staying at Mount Allison for a 3rd year, and I am looking into other places for plans, and shall be working on that throughout the school year.

Belated, But I am Back

Oh shoot, it's been a while. I haven't had time to do much with the Japanese students. I was working, and on vacation.
I was, and still am working very hard, I am a part-time worker with full-time hours.
I went on vacation with my boyfriend, and this is why I was away for ten days, I cannot believe I didn't mention this in my last entry. I have a boyfriend now. Shocker, and he isn't Asian, shocker number two. So yes, I met most of his family, very nice people. I have also been to places I have never been before, and met plenty of new people.
So my Japanese Conversation Partner gave me Hello Kitty things for my birthday; a plushie, band-aid's, two ruler cases made by her grandmother, two sticker sheets, and a notebook. <3 We finally got to talk one night last week.
I am finally 19, but I have to wait to get my Photo ID because I have no birth certificate, it's on the way though.
Not much else is going on in my life at the moment though.

Just a Quick Update

I got my email for the Academic Probation which I knew I would be getting eventually.
I haven't had much time to hang around the Japanese students. Both them, and I have been busy. I am going away for 10 days with no internet tomorrow as well. I still have my conversation partner's umbrella. D: I really wanted to get it back to her sooner but it is hard to find the time.

Hopefully next time I will have something more interesting to blog about.

Summer with the Japanese Students So Far

So far I have had a lot of fun with the Japanese students. I feel closet to four, and they are all friends with each other. I met two the day before the scavenger hunt, and I met my conversation partner, and I met another one of her friends on the shopping trip this past weekend. While shopping with them I bought clothes from H&M, and Urban Outfitters. We will be going to Hopewell Rocks, and the Ranch nearby it this weekend, and I am quite excited. I have grown up in the Maritimes, and I know of Hopewell Rocks, but I have never been there, and I don't know where it is. That should be a fun trip. My conversation partner, and I also went to McDonald's with my Conversation Partner. She gave me a Purikura photo of her, and her friend, and I will keep that always. She also gave me, and my Dad each a pair of chopsticks. I can't wait to have more fun with them again sometime soon.
It is going to be really hard in August when they leave, I will miss them dearly.

Final Marks (^^);

So...I...um...got my marks.... I passed Macroeconomics with a C which makes me go WTF?! I thought I failed that course. I failed Asian History though... I thought I would fail Economics... I have to apply myself more next year. My best mark was of course Japanese. I passed everything else just barely... I am going to retake the courses I failed, so Sociology, and the History Course. I have to see about a Commerce major. OMG I am so scared. I feel so stupid. I tried harder second semester I swear but I just suck. :'(

They're Here! ~~~ヾ(＾∇＾)

I still haven't got my marks yet. I am going to go get that fixed tomorrow.
So yesterday I met my Japanese Conversation Partner, and she is the cutest. I also ran into a lot of them in town on Saturday because they went shopping, and I was downtown shopping as well. We did a scavenger hunt yesterday, and it was pretty insane. We didn't win but we had a great time. I really enjoyed it. I hope to have an enjoyable summer with the Japanese Students. I am still bitter about not getting a Resident Assistant job but maybe next year, I hope.

Summer

So exams are done. I would have posted sooner but my netbook was sent to Ontario for repairs. I knowingly failed Macroeconomics because I left most of the exam blank. I really did not like the professor or the teaching style. I have to go to the university because I can't register for courses, and I can't see my marks because I have an "outstanding payment", and I did pay off my account by the way. I am probably going to be put on academic probation next year. I compared the Bachelor of Arts Programme, and the Commerce Programme, and I like Commerce more so I am going to see if I can make the switch. I still want to minor in Japanese studies though. I also need Psychology which I am redoing, and Economics, which I am redoing with a different professor. I will probably redo Sociology eventually as well. I really want to do well. I also want to go to Japan, on the exchange program quite badly. I had applied for a second job with the university but I lost out due to seniority, even though I was perfect for the job, it was an Resident Assisant Job for the Japanese Students that stay for the summer. I do have a Japanese conversation partner for the summer though, and I am quite excited for that. I will post throughout the summer because I am still involved with the university in some way~ I will also post again when I find out my marks, and get this student account thing fixed.

Exams Next Week

Exams next week, ohhh gawd. D: I am currently under the weather, and trying to study without passing out. I have an English Exam Thursday, Japanese Exam Friday, History Exam Saturday, Economics exam the next Tuesday or Wednesday, and Commerce Exam Friday. I cannot fail any course this time, if I do I am so screwed. I am .1 point below the acceptable Grade Point average. I really need to do well since I failed Sociology last semester which I failed, and hated, and probably should have dropped.

（；_・）

When was the last time I posted here. *goes, and checks* Okay so I left of in the middle of March. It's April now, and exams are next week.
I was thinking I was going to have an awesome summer because I thought I might get the summer resident assistant job. I was the perfect candidate, but of course the old students got the positions, and I am left with nothing to do all summer again. I was looking so forward to that too.
I work three times this week all closing shifts, and I have already gone after the store manager once about me being a university student but apparently he doesn't care. I am going to look for a new job, I won't be staying there much longer.
I am stressed, and overwhelmed to the max. Nothing has been good lately, and all I have been doing is crying.
I dyed my hair black today.

The School Year is Almost Over

Last time I posted was probably in early February. It's March now. Also daylight savings has gone by.
I was really busy with three essays due two weeks ago, and work had me completely overwhelmed. It is okay now. I have an Macroeconomics assignment due Friday. I am going to skip the classes, and read the textbook instead, and go to tutorial, our professor teaches us nothing. I bombed that midterm. I also bombed the history midterm. I didn't do as good as I thought I did on the Japanese midterm. I hate labs for Commerce, they suck, the group never contacts me.
The Society of All Nations Banquet was the other night, and it was quite fun.
Spring is upon us. So is Easter weekend, and EXAMS! *panics* I really need to work hard.
I applied to be an RA for the Summer Japanese students. I would absolutely love to have that job. <3 I really love the Japanese students.
I participated in a Japanese Speech Contest the other day, and was shaking like a leaf. We only had a week to prepare, and I re-typed the essay twice. It was very nerve-wracking, but very good practice.
I don't know when I will remember to post again. See you around.

I've Been Busy

When was the last time I updated? Sorry, I forgot about this blog.
Midterms are over, thank God. I really screwed up my English midterm, I was stressed out do a Financial Situation. I never filled out my Confirmation of Earnings back in September so my second half of my student loan hasn't come in yet. They sent me the forms for it, and I didn't even see it in the envelope, and I found it today. I spent 4 hours studying for the Making of Modern Asia, and I have one article left to read, and of course it was on the midterm, it's 40 pages long, and long winded so I am reading it during Independent Study week. In Economics I have been ding surprisingly well assignment wise. I studied a bit for the midterm but I didn't remember all the equations. Japanese, the midterm was a breeze~ Although last week the teacher couldn't come in on Monday, Wednesday the weather was bad so class was canceled so we had class at lab time on Thursday, which was a very busy day. I had English, went and got my Confirmation of Earnings form filled out at work, had a History midterm, had to go get my cell phone which I left at home, had an economics midterm, and then had Japanese class. We studied at the cafe in the student centre which was great fun.
I went to the Chinese New Year celebration hosted by the Chinese Student Association, and that was great fun, this was held two weeks before the actual date though. We celebrated Chinese New Year by going to the local Canadian Vietnamese Restaurant, and we got a lottery ticket. I gave out Valentine's day cards for Valentine's Day, even to the guy I like, who I constantly run away from, and I have to stop that.
I wonder what is going to happen now?

So Busy （￣へ￣）

Class is much more fun this semester, and the textbooks aren't boring. I am back into the massive amounts of reading, and it is driving me nuts. I hang around with friends when I can because if I don't I probably would loose my sanity. I like a guy in my Japanese class, and when I talked to him for the first time I don't even remember it, I just remember being really embarrassed. I have to straighten myself out here, and I have shifts at work because it's the 'slow period' at work right now, and people who are up to par, and available will be working, well I guess I am since I am working four shifts this week.

Late Again

I actually did have class today. One lab, and it was for commerce. I checked my email, and labs for commerce started this week, and anyone who missed yesterday's started today. The room was switched just for today so I ran across campus. I was already late. The room was packed, and I had to stand by the door behind tall people.
I bought the textbooks today, and I bought whatever I could used, and the most expensive was the business textbook.
I have readings to do tonight for English, and Asian History. I looked for the Asian History article in the archives, and the professor put it on the course site.
I also went to get my bursary from my father's workplace today. That is the only bursary I got because I am not prep, and I don't have connections.

2nd Semester First Day

My first class today was English. I left the house late. I also had to check the campus map to see where my English class was because I had no clue where the building was. Too bad the map, and the actual campus layout doesn't really correspond. I went into the wrong building, and when I went to check the map on the wall down the short flight of stairs to see what building it was I didn't see or even bother to look down, and tripped over the step there. I then realized that it was the building behind the one I was in. Not all the buildings are properly marked. I was late for class, and when I walked into the class it was like the first day of first semester all over again. I was sitting beside someone from my high school, and someone else from the high school was in the class. I am going to enjoy English, it is very interesting.
I went to Asian History with Jill and Howard. :D I am so glad they are in the class. This class will be fun as well.
It was a god thing Jill is also in the same Economics class as me because when I wrote down the room for the lab, and the class I screwed them up. Our professor is a squirrel. This class should be enjoyable too.
I am going to fight this semester, and not procrastinate.

Winter Semester Starts Soon

The Christmas Break is done tomorrow since it will be my last day off.
I checked my student email and found emails from my Japanese teacher, and since there are so many people in the Introductory Japanese II class A she is requesting that some people switch into class B, and I can't do that because I like having friends in the class that I know.
I was going through my textbooks because there is a used textbook sale, and I can sell all my books except for the Japanese ones. That's roughly 450$ worth of books. My cat kitten Mochi chewed on Still Blaming Children by: Bernard Schissel, and I didn't like the book, apparently neither did Mochi.
This semester I have:
Introductory Japanese II
Business Studies and Tutorial to Commerce Lab
Introduction to Principles of Literary Analysis
The Making of Modern Asia
Principles of Macroeconomics and Tutorial Macroeconomics Lab
I have to work really hard this semester to redeem myself. I will keep up with my readings, and go to all of my labs. I will not do what I did last semester which was stupid, and reckless. I will study for my midterms as well, even though I did really good on the Sacred Space Holy Land Midterm, and I winged it.